Hello Misty,

I don't mind you asking. It is a very insightful question.

I am going to direct to some of my articles which deal with this topic. If you were to read them in the order presented, you should have a pretty good idea of where I am coming from after the first or second.

I am afraid that the simple dichotomy of Christian or non-Christian fails to capture the essence of whatever it is that I am.

https://medium.com/interfaith-now/saint-john-or-how-i-learned-to-stop-worrying-and-love-the-apocalypse-6cc50bd85ab1

https://medium.com/interfaith-now/ten-things-david-koresh-and-i-had-in-common-9e56360640eb

https://medium.com/interfaith-now/saint-john-retconned-the-bible-and-all-i-got-was-this-cup-of-poison-kool-aid-b225666d9a

https://medium.com/interfaith-now/why-i-am-an-anti-gnostic-gnostic-2f0652edb661